Dear 2018

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Every year, along with the wrinkles we acquire, we add a little wisdom currency to our life bank. We acquire some organic wealth. 

I try to extract a few key themes/learnings from each year that passes, mostly just to reflect a little and draw meaning from what has passed. 

2018 has been a building of RESILIENCY & a deeper understanding of GRACE. 

It’s hosted a new relationship, another incredible visit to India, many sweet moments with my young nieces. I’ve taught approximately 750 yoga classes, 3 teacher trainings, made the toughest decision I’ve ever had to make, cried oceans and packed up my apartment into storage.  

The capacity to start again even while things are still processing and being digested, resiliency. The flexibility and courage to continue when the plan seems to be drastically changing in front of your very eyes. The inner strength that you didn’t know you had until you had to find it within. The giving in to tears and hiding when that’s exactly what you need. Resiliency. 

And grace…

Well that’s what comes when the slate has been wiped clean, when the thing you thought you had or knew disappears and you are graced with loss/awe/fragility/humility, (one or all of the above). We will often try to fill the loss or disappointment with something or someone else and grace is what allows us to leave an opening, to feel it all, to let the waves of emotion come, and go.

The sanskrit word Anugraha is sometimes translated to mean grace and when we break it down into it’s root words ‘graha’ – holding or grasping and ‘anu’ – which when used as a prefix means after, we end up with after the attachment.  What happens after we have solidified our experience as certain and then that turns out to not be true? What happens after the rug has been pulled from under our feet? 

Grace.

“All the natural movements of the soul are controlled by laws analogous to those of physical gravity. Grace is the only exception. Grace fills empty spaces, but it can only enter where there is a void to receive it, and it is grace itself which makes this void. The imagination is continually at work filling up all the fissures through which grace might pass.” 
― Simone Weil, Gravity and Grace

I’m excited to enter 2019 with no major plans, no fixed address, no desire to fill the space. 

I hope you get a few moments between christmas and new year to reflect on what you achieved or survived this year, to celebrate the highs and the lows, to extract the wealth. 

Happy end of year, thanks for the wisdom 2018. 

x

Maryanne

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